Update on my New Year’s resolutions // Mental health, self-improvement, weight loss and more
Evening lovelies ♥ Since one of my most read blogpost this year was my New year, new me? Mental health and self-improvement post and since I have gotten so many sweet messages from you guys about it, then I thought it was about time that I gave you guys a little update on how everything is going. I know that there are a lot of you out there struggling with the same things, so I hope that this will somehow make you feel less alone. It has certainly helped me to hear many of you share your stories and it makes me so happy to hear how some of you have sought help and have overcome your struggles – hopefully I will have a similar story sometime in the future ♥
Most of my resolutions are things that I already knew would be hard for me to succeed with. You do not just change old and deeply rooted habits from one day to another and my struggles with depression is definitely not making it any easier. I feel exhausted most of the time and on bad days I can barely find the energy to get out of bed and get through the day, so I know this will be a slow process, but I feel like I am on the right track and I am proud of my slow, but steady progress.
Get back into a healthy routine – food + exercise
This resolution is definitely the one that I am having the most success with so far. I have mainly been eating really healthy since the beginning of the year, I would say that I eat healthy 80-90% of the time, which was my goal, so I am really happy about that. I don’t want to be too strict, I really enjoy being able to order pizza once in a while, eat candy or cake, go out for cocktails with the girls and eat a burger with fries if I feel hungover the next day – it is all about balance ♥
Getting back into a proper exercise routine have also been going really well, I am working out 2-4 times a week depending on how busy I am and I am actually kind of starting to enjoy it – hah never thought that would happen!
One of my goals is also to lose the weight I put on last year while I worked on my cookbook. I put it on slowly throughout a year, so that is also how I intend on losing it. No crash diets or anything like that, simply a healthy lifestyle and getting back on track with my diet and exercise. I lost 4 kilos quite fast when I first started out, but I haven’t lost much since, which is of course a bit frustrating, but I feel like I am on the right track with my healthy lifestyle, so the weight is going to come off at some point – and I need to keep in mind that it really isn’t that much I need to lose, so the weight should definitely be off before summer and bikini season arrives ;)
Work on my mental health – get professional help
This one have been the toughest resolution for me. I have kept most of these things to myself for so long that it felt absolutely nerve-racking to finally have to open up and talk to someone about it.
It took me a while to find the nerve (and there is always a long wait to get an appointment), but I went to see my doctor last week to get a referral to a psychologist. I pretty much broke down crying the minute I sat down and it felt both awful and really liberating to have to open up and tell her why I wanted the referral. I was so nervous in the waiting room that I almost felt like I had to throw up, my worst fear was to finally open up to a professional and ask for help only for her to dismiss my struggle and tell me I was exaggerating or being dramatic. Not that I think/hope any doctor would ever say anything like that.
Luckily she weren’t anything like that. She was very understanding and concerned. I got the referral, but there is sadly a very long wait to be able to get in with a psychologist as a new patient – up to 6 months when it regards depression and anxiety, kinda ironic huh?! – and I still haven’t found one that I really like (let me know if you can recommend one in Copenhagen that specializes in depression and anxiety), but hopefully it will all work out.
I guess my physician was a bit concerned about the whole situation, so she suggested that I come back for “conversational-appointments” while I wait to get in with a psychologist. I accepted her offer, though I feel a bit hesitant to have to share all these things and really put myself out there only to start all over when I finally get a psychologist. It is absolutely exhausting for me to talk about these things, I usually keep them buried quite deep and I just feel completely flooded with emotions whenever I have to open up and share as it really forces me to acknowledge how I truly feel and how I am struggling.
After my doctors appointment (which was in the morning) I was so exhausted that I went home and pretty much just passed out. I felt more tired than I ever have before, so I ended up just staying in bed with my laptop and a book all day. It kind of makes me dread having to open up again, even though I know it is far from healthy to keep everything bottled up and that pretending everything is fine is not going to help me get any better, but it is all just a bit overwhelming.
Practice being more mindful and present
This one is not going well at all to be honest. I feel like most of my days are a total blur and I really struggle with slowing down and being more present. I desperately need to get better at this, but I feel like it is not going to happen from one day to another, so I won’t let myself get too discouraged by my lack of process, it will take time to change the way I think and live – it is not just going to magically happen, it is something that I will continually need to work on.
I am looking at a couple of books and apps on mindfullness and living in the present that will hopefully help me get better at this, I will share them if they are worth recommending! Also, please share if you have any good tips, tricks etc. that you think might help me, haha I am pretty much willing to try anything right now!
Spend more time offline and away from technology
This is definitely an area where I need to improve a lot more as well, but I do feel like I am getting better. I have started to read more and I have tried to get a bit more creative recently as well, drawing and writing, I am not very good at it, but that isn’t really the point here ;)
When the weather gets better I want to get out more as well, I love going for long walks and explore new areas, but it is just wayyy too cold right now!
Get better at planning & organizing – optimize my worktime!
While I feel like I have gotten better at planning and organizing my time, then a lot of unexpected things have happened lately (I got sick x 2, got an unexpected freelance job etc.) and it have kinda thrown my whole plan and work schedule out of order lately. So yeah, it is definitely something that I need to keep working on. I feel like I am getting better at organizing my time and better at taking time off in the weekend and at night, but I need to get better at adapting to changes and handling curveballs thrown at me – I get way too ineffective whenever life doesn’t go according to plan instead of just buckling up and getting to work!
I have just ordered a new planner (affiliate link) that have already made a big difference in optimizing my worktime, I love how it has the days divided into tasks ranked by importance – it is perfect when you tend to add way too many things to your to-do list!