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The reason I disappeared for two months – early midlife crisis?

Good afternoon lovelies ♥ It has been way too long since I last posted and I am sorry that I kinda just dropped off the face of the earth for a while.

I honestly never meant to take such a long break, I only intended to take some time off between Christmas and New Years Eve and then get back to business, but I found myself in a pretty bad place during the Christmas holidays. I really started to question everything in my life and came to the conclusion that I needed to take a break from the blog and social media in order to figure everything out.

I know it sounds a bit dramatic, but I honestly truly felt like I was going trough some kind of early midlife crisis and to makes matters worse seasonal depression always hits me HARD around January, so I was in a pretty dark place.

I started questioning everything, my job and businesses – do I even enjoy it anymore? Is is worth it? Am I ever truly going to make it? My personal life – I will be turning 30 this year, I am still single, almost all my friends are having babies and starting this new chapter in their life and I sometimes worry where I will fit in all of it. I am finding myself in a situation where I am almost worse off financially than when I was a student – sometimes it sucks running your own business and being so dependent on others for freelance jobs, orders, sponsorships and such things that you can’t really control.

I haven’t been making enough to make ends meet lately and I have completely drained my savings, so that was definitely a huge stressfactor. I am used to getting by on a really tight budget, but I was completely panicking when NYE came around and I hadn’t booked anything for January or February, so I started looking for random parttime jobs to supplement my income (many of you have asked how it is that I actually make a living, I have written all about that here), but thankfully I managed to turn it around in the first week of January by booking quite a few freelance jobs + a new brand collaboration as well, so I decided to put off the job search for the time being.

I know I am probably just rambling a bit right now and some will probably think that I am being a bit too honest about my financial situation, but I think it is important to share the not so wonderful sides of being self-employed as well. It can truly be such a struggle at times and it is so stressful to not have the financial security that comes with a regular stable job.

So yeah, I decided to take some time off from posting in January and February in order to focus on making as much money as possible from freelance jobs and side hustles, so I wouldn’t have to stress as much about my financials. Feeling a little less stressed about money was just what I needed in order to achieve just enough peace of mind to be able to try and figure out what I want to do moving forward.

Do I want to continue being self-employed and keep trying to grow my businesses? I honestly considered giving it all up and just get a regular 9-5 job that would offer me more financial stability + I even thought about going back to Uni to finish my law degree, but taking some time away from everything made me realize just how much I love and appreciate doing what I do and I am not ready to give it up just yet.

I am so proud of everything that I have achieved and my business that I have pretty much built from nothing, so I want to give it another shot and I want to keep fighting for it. I have to be realistic though, I am struggling financially, so either I really have to get my hustle on and somehow try to make ends meet while solely focusing on my own business and continuing doing what I do (I have so many new and exciting business ideas, taking some time off really was a blessing) OR I will have to get a part time job on the side as well to help supplement my income.

Getting a part time job means that I would not have to constantly stress about my finances, which is a big big plus, but it would also take a lot of time away from my own businesses, which could make it quite hard for me to really get them to grow to the level I am hoping for. I honestly don’t know what I am going to do, but I know that I will have to figure it out quick because the stress is starting to take a toll on me.

Phew, okay that was a lot! If you are still here, then THANK YOU for listening to my rambling – if you have any thoughts or advice on what you think I should do, then I would love to hear it, I am definitely struggling a bit with this whole situation ♥

3 Comments

  • Philipp K

    Hey Signe, you’ll get that done!

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  • You shouldn’t be stressing so much about the timings in your life, each of us has their own timing and things will eventually fall into place, you’ll see.
    I will be 37 this year, and I didn’t stop dreaming and hoping to find new ideas for business, for life, whatever! I don’t have it all figured out just yet and I’m glad for it. ;)

    When I was 32 I stepped away from a 12 year old relationship that seemed so much like a divorce (and oh I wanted children, hopefully before 30, so that didn’t happen), and got lucky enough to find the love of my life right after, and I have a baby son now. It was so much later and so differently than what I have planned, but it was the right fit. And although I had really tough times, I’m glad now I waited all this long to start a family.
    My advice to you, both in personal and business life is to listen to what you really want, don’t get lost in the middle of the noise out there, you’ll make it happen, you’ll see. Just look into yourself to find the answers.
    Best of luck to you!

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  • Hej Signe. Jeg følger både med på insta og her på bloggen. Forstår virkelig godt den følelse og det stress du føler forbundet med din økonomiske situation. Men jeg vil bare sige at du gør det så godt og elsker dine billeder. Tænker du skal gøre alt hvad du overhovedet kan for at få din drøm til at lykkedes og hvis det indebærer en deltidsjob kan du jo sagtens det. Der er jo ingen der siger at det ikke bare kan være 10 timer om ugen.
    Jeg krydser fingre for dig og håber du finder roen og ikke fokusere på det der stresser dig. ❤️

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